Thoughts that are stored deep in your subconscious mind
will not be there for long they will in some time rise
they will control your conscious thoughts and behaviour at first
before they become desires demanding you to quench their thirst

There was probably a time that you rejected their nature
you knew they were bad even if they promised you pleasure
and you reacted by suppressing them into the back of your mind
thoughts you thought were bad once are now surfacing aligned

And you are afraid of them because you may not be able to control
the desire to embrace them and stop resisting from them all
because all these years have got you tired and made you weak
that ‘s why they are coming back at you now your future is bleak

The worst part of all is that you don’t know how they will return
you are afraid of the way they will surface and take their revenge
but what you fear the most is that they may reveal your secrets somehow
forcing you to spell them out while you sleep perhaps; remember… you are weak now

As you grow old most of these things start to get out of your control
you get tired your value ties get weaker and you are far from standing tall
you see need makes you do stuff and in the process you get a lot to hide
and your only way out is to tame not eliminate those thoughts along the ride

You know by now that eliminating your passions is not always a fool proof solution
by nature you are expected to bow to these desires and thoughts but that’s not evolution
your instinct tells you that a controllable chaos needs to be maintained somehow within oneself
in order for your mind to be set free from these and be able its sanity to conserve

what this chaos will be?
does it really set your mind and body free?
does it set you free from your passions, unconscious thoughts or acquired disorders?
or is this yet another mind game to acquire fears beyond of what is real?

you know you need that place to feel immunity and that is what your instinct calls a chaos
it doesn’t have to be a real place it just has to be that place where oneself allows
everything to be said to be heard to happen and to let it all out
fears, passions, thoughts, desires, suppressed feelings that nobody else should find out

Remember those thoughts that you stored deep in your subconscious mind?
they are all gone now; they have transformed in creative bits of some kind
you ‘ve set them free
you are now free
others will come but do not drift apart
the solution, the relief, the chaos you ‘ve been looking for is art

Sweet Floyd

31.05.2014